Monday, August 19, 2013

The Problem with Flirting

My match.com membership expired a couple days ago. I decided not to renew it, especially because I've begun to think of this online dating site as "Middle-Aged Men and the Young Women They Lust After" and "Men Who Want Girls Who Don't Eat". (I just read a profile where the guy wrote, "I'm looking for a girl who's in shape, not a girl who's a shape." I mean, really?)

I'm disappointed and embarrassed that I only got to go on one date this time around. It made me think that maybe there was something wrong with me, or that maybe I was just very unattractive.

On the other hand, I haven't really e-mailed anyone in a couple of weeks; I don't feel as hopeful about it as I did when I first signed up. I also haven't logged on to plentyoffish in more than a month, partly because under "occupation", one guy wrote "Hi people"; b) I am apparently very appealing to men with multiple children and ex-wives; c) more than one guy wrote in his profile that he wanted to give his dates lots of massages (and I don't even like to hold hands!).

When I went to cancel my match.com membership, I received an offer: "3 months for the price of 1". Despite my failure with both match and plentyoffish, I thought about joining zoosk.com, which is one of the few dating sites I haven't tried. But on the other hand, I would have to pay almost three times the amount that match.com was offering me for the same amount of time on zoosk. I could have tried eharmony again, but it would have cost more than a hundred dollars to see a bunch of profiles with no pictures. (I'm not completely superficial, but I do want to see at least one picture of the guy before the date. I just want to Google him to make sure he's not on America's Most Wanted. Just kidding. Sort of.)

I also could have tried okcupid again, which is free, but I was afraid I'd get more e-mails from married guys (whose wives were also on the site) or from guys who insulted me because I didn't want to hook up with them...and their friends.

I always thought that I'd meet someone the old-fashioned way, by chance when I was out pursuing my own interests, working, or just running errands. But my interests include going to neighborhood festivals like Northalsted Market Days, which is in Lakeview (otherwise known as Boystown). I think of that festival as "The day that I walk around eating funnel cake while staring wistfully at all the muscular gay guys dancing in colorful underwear." (And they're all so friendly, polite, and nice, darn it!)

The chances of my meeting someone at work are fairly slim, since I'm an English teacher and a grad student. Most of the other grad students and teachers are a) female; b) in a relationship; c) gay; d) single, male, straight, and only have eyes for women like Jane Austen, the Bronte sisters, or Mary Shelley.

Even though a lot of the guys on match.com claim that they're tired of the bar scene, I know that most of the guys are actually at the bars and clubs. But seeing as how I don't drink alcohol and most of my friends are too busy changing diapers or working sixty-hour weeks to go clubbing, I don't get to go to those places very often. Anyway, every time I do go to a bar, I keep yelling, "WHAT?" the whole time. I also keep thinking, I could order two twelve-packs of Coke for the price of this one cocktail.

Every once in a blue moon, a cute guy does flirt with me, but seeing as how I literally am a nonflirt, I'm usually clueless and oblivious when it happens. For example, when I went to another festival, I bought a chocolate covered strawberry. The guy who sold it to me said, "I'm going to give you one of the big ones, because you're cute." I merely said, "Thanks," because what I was really interested in was the strawberry.

When I went to one of the cafes where I'm a regular, one of the male baristas kept complimenting me and trying to chat me up. But I was too focused on the manuscript I was working on, the coffee I was drinking, and the person who loved Justin Bieber so much that she blasted it from her iPhone (I thought about pouring my coffee on her iPhone, but that would have been a waste of coffee.)

I usually don't even realize that a guy is flirting with me (or in one case, that a guy just asked me out) until he's given up and walked away. Partly it's because I get harassed by random creepy guys on the street on a regular basis. I've learned to keep my head down, my eyes averted, and my mouth shut. So when a cute and friendly guy tries to strike up a conversation with me, I immediately clam up. On the other hand, it's also because I really am very shy and don't know how to react, because I automatically think that he's only talking to me because he's a) drunk; b) trying to make his ex-girlfriend jealous; c) trying to convince me to join his cult. (And yes, all three things have happened before.)

When I'm online, it's easier. You have to be more straightforward online, by sending a "wink" or an e-mail (I always send e-mails). It's much easier to say hi to a cute guy online than to just walk up to one in person. You can figure out what you want to say beforehand and rewrite it if it doesn't sound right, unlike in real life. If someone you don't like tries to contact you, all you have to do is block him.

So I decided to renew my membership with match.com for three more months. I'm also thinking of going to one of match.com's singles events, such as one of their speed-dating parties. If that doesn't work, then maybe I'll try zoosk, or maybe I'll rejoin okcupid. I want to keep trying, at least for now. But if online dating really doesn't work out (I can't keep doing it forever, or rather, I can't keep reading profiles written by arrogant, age-obsessed jerks for that much longer), then I'm going to have to turn off my computer and venture out into the "real world" to meet someone, rather than wait until we've exchanged several e-mails before we meet in person.

What do you think? Is it easier for you to meet people (whether it's significant others or friends) online or in person?

20 comments:

  1. If guys think you're cute, just go with it! Don't overthink it. Just continue the conversation. You could tell the strawberry guy in a joking way, "I bet you say that to ALL the girls!" I had to tell a toll booth guy that once, LOL! (But we couldn't talk because obviously there was a line of cars waiting impatiently behind me....)

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    1. Hi Julie,
      I do need to stop overthinking things, but it's difficult because I overthink almost everything. That's why I'm neurotic. :) I always think of the right thing to say to the guys after it's too late.

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  2. OMG! Justin Bieber blaring from the iphone! I would have wanted to pour my coffee on the phone too.

    I agree with Julie, but I was exactly the same way when I was single. I remember friends of guys telling me someone was interested and flat out just not believing it...so I guess my only additional advice would be to try to be open to all possibilities.

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    1. Hi Johanna,
      I couldn't decide whether to pour my coffee on the Belieber or the guy who was having a very loud Skype conversation with his friend on his laptop. I'd stay home and write if I didn't love the coffee and pastries they serve at those cafes so much.
      It is difficult for me to believe it if a guy is interested in me, because it doesn't happen very often. But you're right; I do need to consider all the possibilities.

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  3. I think it's hard, period. I wish I had an answer for you. All I can say is that you have to put yourself out there to find someone. You have to sift through all that sand to find the gem.

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    1. Hi Theresa,
      Blogging about it and reading comments like yours have helped me get through all of this. When I was younger, I didn't think that dating would be this difficult. I just hope that it will be worth it in the end.

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  4. The speed dating thing could be interesting.
    I'm with you--not a fan of clubs simply because I can't hear anything but the pounding music.

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    1. Hi Lynda,
      They usually have the speed dating events once a month. I tried to sign up for one before, but they always fill up very quickly.
      I think I'd enjoy clubbing more if I knew how to dance without falling down.

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  5. I can't blame you on the strawberry. Men are no match for that.

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    1. Hi Libby,
      It was a really good strawberry. I tend to lose focus on everything else when food is involved.

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  6. Yeah clubs and bars are hardly ever good places to get to know someone.

    I prefer to meet people offline, but... I don't know, I haven't found the right guy yet, so maybe I'll try online dating one day.

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    1. Hi Misha,
      If only I actually liked sports; then I could go to a sports bar and meet tons of guys. Not to mention I'd actually be able to follow the games that are shown on the bars' TVs.
      Even though I'm still single after several attempts at online dating, at the same time I don't regret it because I learned a lot. So I still recommend it to anyone who's interested.

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  7. I know this sounds crazy- but have you ever tried just maintaining eye contact? I learned this one from my husband- guys are just as insecure as us, they won't make a move unless they're sure of success- and it turns out eye contact is like waving a bright green flag. Next time you go out, don't flirt, just look around for a guy that looks nice and maintain eye contact just long enough to not be freaky- I bet he'll come over and start talking to you.

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    1. Hi Melanie,
      Thanks for the advice! I think that maintaining eye contact is a good idea. I need to work up the courage to do that. In Chicago people usually don't make eye contact with people they don't know, mainly for safety reasons. But I think it would be okay to make eye contact with a cute guy who seems nice, especially if it's in a public place with lots of people around.

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  8. Melanie is so on the money with the eye contact. Or even if you bashfully look away, look back. Always look back. And smile. Make sure you're smiling when you bashfully look away, especially.

    Also, I don't agree that Chicagoans don't make eye contact. Look around next time you're in public; I'd bet money that most people will meet your eyes. It might be slightly less than when I'm in New York because people are more shy and Midwestern introverted/self-absorbed, but they'll still meet my eyes and start up a random conversation if the opportunity arises. And I mean, come on, how does not making eye contact keep you safe, haha. Make eye contact!

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    1. Hi mmarinaa,
      The reason I said that a lot of people in Chicago don't make contact is because I was thinking of what happens when I'm on the train or the bus. That is, most people make a point of not looking at each other, because they're afraid of making eye contact with the wrong person. As you know, once I accidentally made eye contact with some random perv on a nearly empty train and he responded by taking off his pants. And when I get harassed on the street by other creeps, it's often because I made the mistake of glancing at them.
      But I think you're right that making eye contact and smiling at a guy who's not a creep would work, because there are shy guys out there too.

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  9. I don't pick up on flirting cues very well either. I'm too straight forward and expect others to be the same. It can be very confusing.

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    1. Hi Emily,
      I've read articles in women's magazines on how to flirt, but I've never had the courage to follow their advice. At least with online dating it's already clear whether someone's interested; that is, if he winks or sends an e-mail, then that's that.

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  10. for me, sometimes it's easier to write then it is to say things. i tend to get my tongue tied if i'm TRULY put on the spot. just breath girl!!

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    1. Hi Tammy,
      It's easier for me to write out what I want to say too; I think that's one of the reasons I became a writer. It's too bad I can't write down witty one-liners on note cards and then give them to people when I'm at a loss for words. :)

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